There is a first for everything

So I use to feel ashamed that I was classified as an Infertile. I felt that I had to be ashamed, I must have done something so horrible that now I'm getting punished for it. But than I started to really sit back and look at the big picture. It was nothing that I or anyone else did. Sometimes Life just hands you lemons, and what do you have to do? Make lemonade of course.

I started this blog to help people understand me and my feelings.

My husband Ray and I started TTC(trying to conceive) 27 months ago. 1 year after starting I of course being a worry wart went to the OBGYN trying to figure out what the hell was going on. After the many tests and the start of many poking and jabbing at my arms, They found it! I have PCOS (Poly cystic ovarian syndrome). Basically I have a bunch of tiny cyts in my ovaries that cause me to have issues. Weight gain, acne, not producing eggs to ovulate. The most important. So I was put on meds and on my way I went.

Shortly after that I was ordered to see a RE (reproductive endocrinologist). He was awesome did a bunch of ultrasounds and put together a treatment plan for me to start with. And Off I went with my box of goodies (aka drugs). I started my IUI's September 2007. After taking many different nasty pills to help you ovulate, jabbing my self in the stomach with needles.... Failed, Failed Failed. Nothing!

After being denied by the insurance company ( for whom I work for) I had to wait until the 2 year mark because I'm under 30. So this September we went to see a New RE. Who totally blew me out of the water. I thought my old RE was heaven... boy was I wrong. My new DR. Again ordered many tests and the jabbing and stabbing starts again... or So I thought.

Got the call from the sweet nurse at the RE (they soon start to feel like your bff's they know every personal aspect about you, and you talk to them daily ) Dr wants me in ASAP.

So we trot our way in... and sure as shit he found something else.

Under active thyroid. the normal level for your thyroid should be between a 1-2...mine was a 5. Not horrible, but not good. He said even If I was to get PG in more than likely would have ended in a miscarriage. So Off I go with more meds to start and another game plan.

So here we are. DR is giving us until January. If I'm not PG by than.... than ill be jacked up on a bunch of hormone therapy and the start of more IUI's it is.

I cant not tell you the amount of tears I have shed in the past 2 years... There definitely isn't draught in my neck of the woods. Infertility is something I do not wish on my Worst enemy. It is an emotional roller coaster.... One I never signed up to ride.......

*Jamie*