Another cycle Failed! I don't know what I get so upset and disappointed by it. I'm use to it...I've had the same outcome for the past 28 months. I guess I still have that little bit of hope. You can't lose hope right?
So this morning I'm at work in the bathroom washing my hands and this lady comes in. I've never even see her before, and asks how I am. I reply "I'm OK, and you?" Even though I wanted to say really? do you really wanna know how I feel? I'm Infertile dammit, I suck But i couldn't.... she was a stranger lol. So after I ask her how she is, she turns and says "Oh I'm just pregnant". Great I said to myself. The day I find out another cycle is down the drain... this stranger tells me she is pregnant. I was thinking to myself there has to be some hidden camera somewhere. After I walked out of the bathroom, I thought to myself do I have the word "infertile" stamped on my forehead... "please tell me that your pregnant"
I know your probably thinking I'm being a bitch. But I didn't know this lady from a whole in the wall. and if we didn't have such high security like fort Knox to get into the building I would say she didn't even work there. :) Its different when someone you know tells you they are pregnant. but not a stranger on the morning you find out you failed AGAIN!
So I have to go next wed to have more blood work done and to start all over! Yay! Im so glad this is the last month of 2008. Im sure hoping 2009 will treat me better.
2 more weeks for santa!! YAY! ;0)
My friend Bethany came over to hang out with her daughter Samantha, got some cute pics of her
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