nope... not this time either

Im so freaking pissed off at my body. I really hate it! There is no other word strong enough than the word hate!
Saturday came, I was all excited, felt great. Went to see Dr. S He did an ultrasound of my ovaries to make sure everything was good to go... Well in order for him to do anything your follicle must be 20mm or more.... I had 4.. yay great! 2 were 6mm and the others were 17mm and 16mm. NOT GOOD! AT ALL! I almost wanted to break down and cry.... But I held it together. So now I have go back on tuesday to see if the grew. Dr S is thinking that maybe it was just early in my ovulation... but I really dont think so. I took an OPK today and nada... nothing... So Im pretty sure that was a big huge waste of time.
I just dont get it... what do I have to do to have my dream that so many people take for grantite?

Im beyond hating my reproductive organs right now!