Please Pray

Finally some progress!

I never thought I would be so excited to get my little monthly friend!

Finally, after 17 days of wondering where the hell it was. So I got my drugs. Tomorrow we start clomid, I have to go in on saturday morning feb 7 for an ultrasound and to make sure that a- there are some follies there to even attempt the IUI, and B that there arent too many! Im super excited and cant wait.

Although I am crazy nervous about the Clomid! I hate taking it... as with any infertility drug it gets your hormones all jacked up.... As ray calls it... I get the crazy clomids lol.. Crazy side effects! and of course i have to get all of them! The crying for no reasons, the hot flashes, migraines, nausiousness... everything!

So Wish us luck! Keep everything crossed that we are on a path to something good here!!



Jamie

It still burns

So Dr S called today to confirm what I already knew... Im not pregnant. I dont know why it hurts so bad but it does. I mean its been 28 months of negative after negative. You would think that it would get easier... But in fact, It keeps getting harder and more depressing. Dr S said that I have to call in 10 days or when my monthly friend comes... which ever is first. Im hoping I dont have to wait another 10 days for it! this is nuts!

So what does one do when she finds out this horrible news?

She goes to the gym and beats the crap out of a freestanding bike, and a punching bag.... good way to get some anger out... but than I got home and realized that this isnt going to be a fun night.. I totally forgot that I had to make a diaper cake for someone for a gift for a freakin baby shower.... ughhh! not a fun night at all...

well here is some pictures of it! I cant lie... i actually enjoyed doing this! I love doing all sorts of arts and crafts crap! its relaxing!

Waiting Waiting

The story of my Life...

Ifeel like this is never going to end. I feel like Im in some bad dream. The Cycle we are suppose to start clomid again and go ahead with more IUI's and my freaking period still isnt here! I have taken 2 HPT tests and both are NEGATIVE!?!? I just dont get it... I have never ever been late... I got my hopes up thinking woohoo this is our month! Just to be let down again!

I went on friday to get my beta done. Im still waiting for that call back to confirm that Im not pregnant! I've never had to wait this long. its pure torture!!!!

Ray and I went to the poconos this weekend! It was awsome! We had a great time. It was my grandfathers birthday on saturday so he actually ended up comming. we had a great dinner and some awsome cake! Saturday we went skiing and snowboarding! It was FREEZING! 10 Below! They had frost bite advisories all over the mountain! Lol never seen that before!

Now its back to reality!

Heres to hoping Dr. S will call shortly!

Heres some pictures from the weekend

Come out Come Out!!

Come out come out where ever you are....
Sooo Period is 2 days late... and a BFN!!! WTF of course this would happen... Im suppose to start my meds this cycle. Is that some cruel freaking joke? Because really? Im not laughing.
Why do these things happen to me? Why why why.
I feel like im going crazy asking myself all these Why's and not knowing the answers.
I will give it until friday and than call Dr. S... that is if he doesnt call me first.
Ray and I are suppose to be heading out to my grandparents pocono house with my brother and his girlfriend this weekend.. for some R&R and some skiing and snowboarding! Woohoo cant wait. I'm dieing to go sking!
Have a great night

sick....ugh

Its been a while since I've updated this thing! sorry about that! Nothing new here. Just waiting to start the next cycle. Should be any day now! I've been so sick for the past 2 days with the nasty stomach virus! not fun!
I started the new year by joining the gym... I was going to go to the free one at work but I figured if I'm paying for it I would be more serious about it! Its been great so far. Monday i had a workout with a personal trainer and boy did he kick my butt! It was rough! but it was great! I cant wait to do it again! I figured it would help me take my mind off of somethings.... and of course help me lose some of this extra weight i put on in the last 2 years.
I hope everyone had a great new years... we did nothing. We stayed home and played scrabble! it was actually nice... I don't think Ray and I have ever stayed home for new years!
Ray finished all the crown molding in the house now it just needs to be finished! What a process that was it took forever but its done and looks great! As soon as I feel better I will post some pics!
Well that's all for now!

Jamie xoxo